Weakness...
I tend to see into things differently then normal. I see the good in people and normally I hope it out weights the bad. I keep finding myself lost... I give and give and all im given back is empty promises and sadness. I have been in a few realtionship that ended pretty ugly. I dont know why I didnt learn the first time. I keep getting stuck in those kind of webs. I see the good....I just have trouble find my way out after its "spun".
I dont want to go into detail about my past relationship or my current but I can say you might get the point.
Love. Whats love? I dont think I have known love as deep as I should, but I know what love isnt. I do know a mothers love. a childs love.A daughters love. A sisters love and a friends love.
I try doing right by the people. Whos going to do right by me? I do right by my friends. Im a good secret keeper. A good Friend, good listener and I give great advice that of which I do not use myself. Very common I sopose. Im me. I know Im a good mother. I do right by my children. Yes every now and then my fuse is short but I never do anything I would regret later. I feel like i help everyone in the simplest task so when someone is in need from needing an emergency babysitter standing in for a husband because hes deployed to be by his wife while shes in labor. jumping someones car cause the battery died or allowing somone to borrow a cup of milk. I get blasted by my other friends for giving into people. Im to nice. I ended up getting hurt. Sometimes I feel like people are who they are around me cause they need something yet I help them anyways knowing the truth.....weakness...
Falling .... Have you met someone who simply amazes you. They sweep you off your feet and all it was is a simple look he gave you and when you looked back you saw question in his eyes..."are you ok?" "do you need help?" "what can I do for you?" and he never even says a word. Its one of those feeling of your heart hitting the pit of your tummy and fluttering back up with the butterflys. It brings you to tears at the end of the day when you feel all alone and the room is full. I have so many thoughts going on in my mind. What will make me good enough and whats good enough? All I can do is be me and supportive and stand on my own and let the feelings go.
I need to feel wanted because I cant be lived without, he cant breath without knowing im a phone call away I dont want to be only needed for a hot dinner at night or clean laundry the next day its way more than that. Im a woman I need romance even if its a simple touch and kiss on the forehead or like mom says "if you kiss someone on the closed eye it means you care so much about them" After 3 kids you want a man to think your sexy in an old tshirt and pj pants and your hair pulled up and he wants you just as much then as he did when you were at your best. like the saying " If he cant accept me at my worst he doesnt deserve me at my best"
Everyone woman needs a man to love her and give her back the same. I always put in to much and get back nothing but complaint for another issue. I dont feel like nothing much more then a ol'momma and a molly maid. I need and want the heat of passion in my life. Nothings perfect I dont mind the sacrafice of going to hell and back with someone as long as we do it together and come out on top together. Things like that make relationships stronger. My case they make them weaker. I love going out on dates minus the kids. Theme parks and kissing on the sky lift. But when he doesnt like theme parks going on dates and hates sky lifts I can be only left with eating dinner at home with the kids watching tv about theme parks and kissing my children before they go to bed at night. Whatever happen to the ones who like long walks on the beach at night? Holding hands and making love? Doesnt happen yall! Another weakness im a hopeless romantic. I leave notes in unusual places and give cards for no reasons. Make favorite meals and its food I cant eat. Breakfast in bed cause hes to sore from the night befor....:) I want the good morning text in the morning befor I even have a chance to hit to snooze button...I want to be loved and thought about like I would do for him. The perfect guy doesnt exist. We have nothing in life but empty promises and no guarantees thats life. When will it be my turn to feel the love back? I was told maybe I am the "independant dont need a man type cause I can do it all on my own" should I take this as a compliment?
My weakness....I want things out of reach. Impossable. Im always last on somoenes list but they seem to be first on mine. I have a big heart and no one to share it with I try to hard when im not trying at all so I always end up hurt and scared longing for hope, faith, trust and most of all love.
I tend to see into things differently then normal. I see the good in people and normally I hope it out weights the bad. I keep finding myself lost... I give and give and all im given back is empty promises and sadness. I have been in a few realtionship that ended pretty ugly. I dont know why I didnt learn the first time. I keep getting stuck in those kind of webs. I see the good....I just have trouble find my way out after its "spun".
I dont want to go into detail about my past relationship or my current but I can say you might get the point.
Love. Whats love? I dont think I have known love as deep as I should, but I know what love isnt. I do know a mothers love. a childs love.A daughters love. A sisters love and a friends love.
I try doing right by the people. Whos going to do right by me? I do right by my friends. Im a good secret keeper. A good Friend, good listener and I give great advice that of which I do not use myself. Very common I sopose. Im me. I know Im a good mother. I do right by my children. Yes every now and then my fuse is short but I never do anything I would regret later. I feel like i help everyone in the simplest task so when someone is in need from needing an emergency babysitter standing in for a husband because hes deployed to be by his wife while shes in labor. jumping someones car cause the battery died or allowing somone to borrow a cup of milk. I get blasted by my other friends for giving into people. Im to nice. I ended up getting hurt. Sometimes I feel like people are who they are around me cause they need something yet I help them anyways knowing the truth.....weakness...
Falling .... Have you met someone who simply amazes you. They sweep you off your feet and all it was is a simple look he gave you and when you looked back you saw question in his eyes..."are you ok?" "do you need help?" "what can I do for you?" and he never even says a word. Its one of those feeling of your heart hitting the pit of your tummy and fluttering back up with the butterflys. It brings you to tears at the end of the day when you feel all alone and the room is full. I have so many thoughts going on in my mind. What will make me good enough and whats good enough? All I can do is be me and supportive and stand on my own and let the feelings go.
I need to feel wanted because I cant be lived without, he cant breath without knowing im a phone call away I dont want to be only needed for a hot dinner at night or clean laundry the next day its way more than that. Im a woman I need romance even if its a simple touch and kiss on the forehead or like mom says "if you kiss someone on the closed eye it means you care so much about them" After 3 kids you want a man to think your sexy in an old tshirt and pj pants and your hair pulled up and he wants you just as much then as he did when you were at your best. like the saying " If he cant accept me at my worst he doesnt deserve me at my best"
Everyone woman needs a man to love her and give her back the same. I always put in to much and get back nothing but complaint for another issue. I dont feel like nothing much more then a ol'momma and a molly maid. I need and want the heat of passion in my life. Nothings perfect I dont mind the sacrafice of going to hell and back with someone as long as we do it together and come out on top together. Things like that make relationships stronger. My case they make them weaker. I love going out on dates minus the kids. Theme parks and kissing on the sky lift. But when he doesnt like theme parks going on dates and hates sky lifts I can be only left with eating dinner at home with the kids watching tv about theme parks and kissing my children before they go to bed at night. Whatever happen to the ones who like long walks on the beach at night? Holding hands and making love? Doesnt happen yall! Another weakness im a hopeless romantic. I leave notes in unusual places and give cards for no reasons. Make favorite meals and its food I cant eat. Breakfast in bed cause hes to sore from the night befor....:) I want the good morning text in the morning befor I even have a chance to hit to snooze button...I want to be loved and thought about like I would do for him. The perfect guy doesnt exist. We have nothing in life but empty promises and no guarantees thats life. When will it be my turn to feel the love back? I was told maybe I am the "independant dont need a man type cause I can do it all on my own" should I take this as a compliment?
My weakness....I want things out of reach. Impossable. Im always last on somoenes list but they seem to be first on mine. I have a big heart and no one to share it with I try to hard when im not trying at all so I always end up hurt and scared longing for hope, faith, trust and most of all love.
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